Sunday’s post

Every Sunday is a sucky day for me.....I hate Sundays.
Been working like mad for the past 1 week.
TIRED + EMO = BAD MOOD
Last week I got a call from someone saying he will be coming down for holiday and
asked if I wanna go for a drink. So I agreed.
Of course I'm excited to meet up since it's been awhile we did not see each other.
Sometimes I wonder.......What kind of relationship are we having here?????
Friends???? Close friends?????? Best friends?????? Or just friends with benefits????
* Scratch head *
Seriously.....I knew what's the answer to that question. I'm just avoiding it.
I'm only suppose to like him as a friend. I knew he is not the type of guy to fall for.
" A PLAYA"
It's very bad to fall for a playa. Can't get anything out of a playa.
I tried very hard to control myself not to go so far and not to care so much bout it.
I DID!!!!!
He is not a super hot but cute but I'm kinda attracted to him.
We met up on Friday and I notice he have a pair of small eyes. That's is so cute....
Deep down inside of me I knew we can't be together.
I'm not crazy for him though but I just want him to treat me as a real friend.
Not someone he can take granted for. After Friday night he went MIA~!
Things a playa always do. *SIGH*
I'm so disappointed but I won't make a move to text him or bbm him or whatsoever.
Whatever that already happened.....Happened.
All I have to do now is just go on with my life as usual and
see what he have to say next time.  

Cool stuffz for Blackberry

Recently I came across this cool website and I think it is quite new. It a site that sells blackberry,blackberry’s accessories, tips and tricks about blackberry, games, themes and also applications download. I did downloaded a few of the games and applications. Not bad at all. Most of the stuffs that I have downloaded are full versions. Before this it is very hard for me to find free full version applications to download. I have to pay to get full version applications. For those blackberry users who are interested please CLICK HERE. Enjoy!!!!!

10 Things I hate about you!!!!

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. 
I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. 
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. 
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

My second tattoo

Finally I got myself another tattoo on the 23rd of November 2009.
*LMAO*
Two tattoo in a year. It might not be a big deal but it is a big deal for me though.
I'm officially addicted. Some said that my tattoo is a'lil big and should have done it a'lil smaller.
Well I like it the way it is and its the size I wanted. *SMILE*
FYI its a swallow with the word freedom. I love it so much. Still in healing process.


So now I'm trying to figure out what's my new design is gonna be. Planning to do another tattoo.
I'll will get another one soon.

WordPress with Blackberry

Just downloaded wordpress for my BB. Not a bad application. *hehe* Now I can blog whenever I want and wherever I want. FYI I’m blogging through my BB right now. Testing it out and learning how to use it.

I feel so tired today and I feel like I’m going to get sick AGAIN and the weekend is just around the corner. This is bad. I hate it. I’m now chilling out on my bed, blogging with my BB and feeling weak. *SIGH*

Crazy

Am I going out of my mind???? I really don’t know.

After the break up I know that I’m anything but myself.

I’m in a messed. Totally fucked up. I did lots of  crazy things that I shouldn’t do.

I’ve changed.

I’m seeing someone now. * Yea, I know*

He is just someone for me to enjoy myself with.

*TROUBLE*

I knew it from the start that I’m playing with fire. Gonna burn myself anytime.

*LOL*

He seems to be getting really serious with me and kinda freaked me out.

He is a bad boy. Gangsta. Tattoos.

Friends told me that I can find someone much more better than him.

*Fuck*

What the hell is wrong with me?????? Seriously I really need to have a normal relationship with a normal guy.

I can’t be so random anymore.

XX

Finally….

It’s been so long now…….I don’t even remember how to blog anymore. There are loads of stuff for me to blog about but I’m just to lazy to do it.

*What a pig*

Really really loads of good stuff and bad shits happened recently. I don’t even know where to start.

First of all…….My work…

Sucks big time. Things are getting worse every second.

It’s either the line is sucky or station is down.

*OMG*

Seriously I really wonder when are they going to solve this problem.

I lost all my motivation and this is bad.

*SIGH*

Something did happened between my friends and me. Particularly with this close friend of mine.

I don’t know whose fault it is but I think its both.

At first I really do feel pissed off by the way she is acting but then I choose not to bother bout it.

I choose to forget bout it and go on with my life.

Just go with the flow and be normal bout it but I felt different.

Everything is not like what it used to be anymore.

There is a gap between us now. Maybe I think too much.

*DAMN*

It’s already 3 a.m. I think I better go get some sleep. Lately I didn’t really get enough of sleep.

Eye bags are getting more and more obvious.

I look like a piece of shit. I will try to blog as often as I can.

*GOOD NIGHT*

XXX

~RESCUE ME~

This used to be our secret
Now I’m hiding here alone
Can’t help but read our names on the wall
And wash them off the stone

I trusted you in every way
But not enough to make you stay
Turn around
I’ve lost my ground

Come and rescue me
I’m burning, can’t you see
Come and rescue me
Only you can set me free
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
Rescue me

We lied when we were dreaming
Our crying was just fake
I wish you could deny it
Here and today

My SOS on radio
The only chance to let you know
What I fear
Can you hear?

Come and rescue me
I’m burning, can’t you see
Come and rescue me
Only you can set me free
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
You and me
You and me
You and me

The walls are coming closer
My senses fade away
I’m haunted by your shadow
I reach to feel your face
You’re not here
Are you here?

Come and rescue me
Rescue me

Come and rescue me
I’m burning, can’t you see
Come and rescue me
Only you can set me free
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
You and me
You and me
Rescue me
You and me
Set me free
Rescue me

~Tokio Hotel~

No title~!

It's raining.....FINALLY after for such a long time of thundering and lightning.
I still feel hot and stuffy.*LOL* Today was P1 Wimax training day....
Well considered it as yesterday cause its now 1.35am which is already 18 of June.
The training started at 12.1pm to 5pm but....I left early.*heez*
I didn't feel sleepy at all during the whole training session.
Not bad at all eh???? *applause*

I'm really tired after a long day but I'm not feeling that sleepy though.
Anywayz I'll sleep in awhile.The rain is hypnotizing me to go sleep.
Finally after searching here and there and many times of downloading.....
I managed to install TWITTERBERRY to my blackberry and TWITTER is the IN thing right now.
More on TWITTER in my next entries......

*nitez*nitez*

HURM~!

Its been so long since my last blog entries.
Been busy with lotsa stuff and also too tired to blog.
As usual....so much had happened be it happy or sad.
I'll make myself blog more. *knock head*
Just got myself a blackberry bold too and I'm now officially broke.*LOL*
Its a cool phone and I'm still trying to get to know my new baby.
Wait for my next entries then....

*Toodles*